What's on your mind?I hate it. I can't get this particular person out f my mind. This is... I hate it. I feel like my mind and my heart's playing tricks n me. If only I could just "shooo" away these things in my head. If only it was that easy. I don't like it. This feeling... Everything.. I want everything back to normal. Normal, meaning how I used t be. How it was before. When I wouldnt think about anything else but the important matters in my life. My studies. I have my goals and plans and Im sure I wouldnt be able to do all my plans nor achieve my goals when Im bothered by "these things".I hate the fact that I culdnt get "that" out f my head.I hate the way "that" smiles.I hate the way "that" makes me feelI hate the way "that" reminds me f everythingI hate the way "that" shows me how I used t be 2 years ago.I hate the way "that" captured meI hate the fact Im captivated by "that"And I hate the way "that" shows me how "it" felt like beforeI'll get over it sooner or later. I hope so.My heart beats fast. And when Im all alone, I get blinded by the thoughts of "that person". No. Im never going t be like that again. How I was when that happend 2 years ago. I never want to be miserable ever again in my life. NO! I promised myself at that time, that I'll never commit the same mistake again. I was badly hurt before. Twice. It was really hard for me. Made me feel... shattered inside. And I didnt like how it felt like. Why is it so hard for me t stop myself from falling. I know and I believe that Im stronger than before, that how i was. I've overcome much since then, but... ironic. N matter hw strong I get everyday, I get to be weaker and weaker whenever im faced with such.
