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10:11 PM;
Posted by jwenny at on in as a post.
Currently listening to: glamorous sky
Currently reading: --
Currently watching: smallville
Currently feeling: confused
What's on your mind?I hate it. I can't get this particular person out f my mind. This is... I hate it. I feel like my mind and my heart's playing tricks n me. If only I could just "shooo" away these things in my head. If only it was that easy. I don't like it. This feeling... Everything.. I want everything back to normal. Normal, meaning how I used t be. How it was before. When I wouldnt think about anything else but the important matters in my life. My studies. I have my goals and plans and Im sure I wouldnt be able to do all my plans nor achieve my goals when Im bothered by "these things".I hate the fact that I culdnt get "that" out f my head.I hate the way "that" smiles.I hate the way "that" makes me feelI hate the way "that" reminds me f everythingI hate the way "that" shows me how I used t be 2 years ago.I hate the way "that" captured meI hate the fact Im captivated by "that"And I hate the way "that" shows me how "it" felt like beforeI'll get over it sooner or later. I hope so.My heart beats fast. And when Im all alone, I get blinded by the thoughts of "that person". No. Im never going t be like that again. How I was when that happend 2 years ago. I never want to be miserable ever again in my life. NO! I promised myself at that time, that I'll never commit the same mistake again. I was badly hurt before. Twice. It was really hard for me. Made me feel... shattered inside. And I didnt like how it felt like. Why is it so hard for me t stop myself from falling. I know and I believe that Im stronger than before, that how i was. I've overcome much since then, but... ironic. N matter hw strong I get everyday, I get to be weaker and weaker whenever im faced with such.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
4:21 AM;
MOOD: Weird
LSS: Material Girl by Madonna
What's on your mind?
I hate it. I can't get this particular person out f my mind. This is... I hate it. I feel like my mind and my heart's playing tricks n me. If only I could just "shooo" away these things in my head. If only it was that easy. I don't like it. This feeling... Everything.. I want everything back to normal. Normal, meaning how I used t be. How it was before. When I wouldnt think about anything else but the important matters in my life. My studies. I have my goals and plans and Im sure I wouldnt be able to do all my plans nor achieve my goals when Im bothered by "these things".
I hate the fact that I culdnt get "that" out f my head.
I hate the way "that" smiles.
I hate the way "that" makes me feel
I hate the way "that" reminds me f everything
I hate the way "that" shows me how I used t be 2 years ago.
I hate the way "that" captured me
I hate the fact Im captivated by "that"
And I hate the way "that" shows me how "it" felt like before
I'll get over it sooner or later. I hope so.
My heart beats fast. And when Im all alone, I get blinded by the thoughts of "that person". No. Im never going t be like that again. How I was when that happend 2 years ago. I never want to be miserable ever again in my life. NO! I promised myself at that time, that I'll never commit the same mistake again. I was badly hurt before. Twice. It was really hard for me. Made me feel... shattered inside. And I didnt like how it felt like. Why is it so hard for me t stop myself from falling. I know and I believe that Im stronger than before, that how i was. I've overcome much since then, but... ironic. N matter hw strong I get everyday, I get to be weaker and weaker whenever im faced with such.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
1:10 AM;
great. Last friday was ur distribution of cards.
my grades were fine. well actually, they were good but I thought that "I could have done better."
There were some that were like, wasted.
maybe. I better beat my grades next quarter.
That's my new goal as of this day.
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Cant wait till my dad gets t buy me my new laptop and burner and scanner.
He told me he'd buy me all the things I need.
I just hope he meant what he said cause I dont want to wait for nothing.
Yesterday was my "first soiree".
It was... fine.... fun..
Hehehe.. parang... may naalala ako ah. [laugh]
I never really thought I'd actually be able to attend one cause my parents met during their soiree when they were still in high school.
And also because I'm an only daughter.
School... School.
aaaah!!!! d*rn. There are still a lot of things to do.
Lab reports.
Reflection.
Homeworks.
Trainings[as in]
Practices [for family day]
IP
Projects...
I pray to God that I dont get sick this quarter cause I hate it.
I hate trying to cope up with the lessons i missed.
Not being able to take a quiz...
sayang grades.. [like dun sa chemistry quiz that I missed last monday.
madali pa naman sana yun, box configuration]
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HOTTIE YOU'RE MINE!
1:10 AM;
great. Last friday was ur distribution of cards.
my grades were fine. well actually, they were good but I thought that "I could have done better."
There were some that were like, wasted.
maybe. I better beat my grades next quarter.
That's my new goal as of this day.
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Cant wait till my dad gets t buy me my new laptop and burner and scanner.
He told me he'd buy me all the things I need.
I just hope he meant what he said cause I dont want to wait for nothing.
Yesterday was my "first soiree".
It was... fine.... fun..
Hehehe.. parang... may naalala ako ah. [laugh]
I never really thought I'd actually be able to attend one cause my parents met during their soiree when they were still in high school.
And also because I'm an only daughter.
School... School.
aaaah!!!! d*rn. There are still a lot of things to do.
Lab reports.
Reflection.
Homeworks.
Trainings[as in]
Practices [for family day]
IP
Projects...
I pray to God that I dont get sick this quarter cause I hate it.
I hate trying to cope up with the lessons i missed.
Not being able to take a quiz...
sayang grades.. [like dun sa chemistry quiz that I missed last monday.
madali pa naman sana yun, box configuration]
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HOTTIE YOU'RE MINE!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
8:58 PM;
The worst class i could be in.. the smart classmates... the superior people of the batch..the serious people.. kill joys.. all time winners... that's what i thought.. i believed...
on the first day of school year 2005 to 2006,as i learned that i belonged to room 7.. a DD class.. ithought that it would be a boring year for me..my usual friends are not my classmates.. i was out of place.. i said to myself.. DD class.. what a class to be in..of all classes... why am i here?!smart people.. i tohought i wouldn't be able to relate with.. i'll have no friends..and then i thought maybe it'll be a bad year...
but i was wrong...
Everyone was great! I had good friends. A good year. no. A GREAT YEAR! I made friends with great people.and i had a good "family".
THE ROCKS family.
Papa Trisha, Mama Regine, Tita Mia, Sister Patty, Cousin Mara, Tita Paula, Tito Denise Tita Karla, Tita Lia and pet Tara.. ^^yes.
i had good classmates...
There were a lot of things i wanted to tell them but i was to shy to say.. why? because they might say im "madrama" or "corny". so instead, i'll just post my messages...
here.
TAHMINA- thanks for all the help! ^^
KYLA- thanks for all the things you've done for me. alam mo na yun! ^~ miss ko na si Ms. Sumo
GLAIZA- salamat chong sa pagsama mo sakin nung party, remember? si ate Lovely.. ^^
CABANA-cabana! salamat sa pagtiyaga mo skain! hahaha.. burahin mo na yung video nmin ni ianah ha? ^^
MARA- oi babae! hahah.. slamat sa nkakatawa mo mukha! di ko makakalimutan! patalsikin natin yung sa gitna natin para pagna Grad na tabi taio! wahahaha.. im glad i met you.
PAULA- hey baby! haha thanks for all the "kindness" nyeh! :P i never thought we'd be close.. ^^ thanks ofr being there when i needed somebody to run to. im glad i met you.
TRISHA- papa! thanks for accepting me as you daughter.. hehehe.. :P miss you!
FATIMA- seatmate sa math! thanks for all the help and patience.
MARIEL- thanks for being an inspiration in math.
LUCILLE- thanks for being a good classmate. ^^
CHRISTINE- thanks for all the funny memories. ^^
CARLA- thanks for being one of my first new friends in year 2005-2006.
KIM- thanks for all the help especially when we were seatmates. BRACELET MO! ^^
NANNIE - thanks for being friendly to me.. ^^ didn't think we had a connection through our friends. ^^
CLAIRE- thanks for all you PATIEEEENCCE!!
YVES- thanks for all your help when i needed your help! ^^
PATTY- KAFATIEEED! miss you and thank you for being one heck of a friend! im glad i met you. grade 4 best friend!^^
REG- mommie! thanks for being ever sooo sweeeet. love you! ^^
LILY- thanks for being an inspiration. (piano)
KATHLEEN- thanks for being a part of this years memories.^^
CINDY- thanks for your funny moments.
ROBYN- thanks sa pagiging patawa mo. you made me smile.
JAYJAY- thanks for all the advices that helped me to get through.^^
TARA- hey darling! haha.. thanks for the great pictures we had.. :P and thank you for all the memories.^^
YSABEL-thanks for being one of the first friends i had this year.^^
ANN-thanks for all the help! ^^
PATTER-thanks for being soooo gooooood to me!!!!!!
MELA- thanks for being nice also!
FRANCES-thanks for your help in giving me a chance to be part of the sports fest. kung wala kaio ni lia and jayjay, never had the guts to join.^^
KARLA- THANK YOU THANK YOU for always being there for me!! kaiong lahat nila mara and nila paula and lia and patty!!!! im glad i met you.
APRILLE- thanks for the patience and for understanding.. ^^
IANAH-thanks for the help and funny things that made me laugh.. ^^
MIA-thanks for the great year and for all the help!! ^^
GINELLE- thanks for taking care of my friend. alagaan mo yan!
AIKO-thanks for the help.
NEKKE-thanks for your smile that lightens up my day. ^^
THEA-thanks for understanding and all the memories. ^^
CAROL-thanks for being the next SCT president.. hehehe.. joke.. :P
DENISE- thanks for all the help and for always making yourself available when i need someone. ^^
JOEY-thanks for being an inspiration. (dancing)
AIA- thanks for all the memories!! ^^
LIA- Thanks Thanks Thanks for ALWAYS listening to me and for always understanding me. im glad i met you. ^^
KARINA- Thanks for always being the one i can be with while waiting for my "sundo" hehehe.. :P
VICKY- thanks for all the great memories and for all the great things you've done for me! MARK my words! im glad i met you.. :P
Sorry for all the things i've done to the people i have offended.. i hope that all the memories we were able to make this year will last forever in our hearts. LOVE YOU GUYS!
Friday, March 03, 2006
4:14 PM;
brrrr.... hatred, anger, pressure, stress... i dont know which of this words would fit to describe my week. it's been a tiring week since we've been cramming for alot of things lately.. projects, homeworks, requirements, parish involvement.. i have no idea on how i'll be able to give my evaluation form to our cluster head since we dont have anymore meetings before the due date of this. darn..
hatred: i hate my life...
i hate myself
i hate homeworks
i hate projects
i hate this darn school requirements
i hate being the only girl coz i cant get to do the things i want to do
i hate this damn whole thing about being in the middle of the fight of my friends..
but i dont hate my friends... ^^
anger: i cant really express my anger here cozi dont want to start thinking about it again.
pressure: darn requirements.. i still feel furious about what happend in our IP. Lia and i were really pressured and damn it! i wont mention who but im sure they know who they are, some groupmates of ours didnt even help us.!!!
and damn this journ campus paper! i must admit, it's fun to write but it's also hard you know?!
he even lost the news i wrote about the service awardees... haaaay..
stress: there are so many thing i do and even if i do them almost everyday, the loads doesnt seem to be get lesser.. actually it seems like the loads are increasing more and more.. i dont know what to do... im so stressed out.
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i'm so glad that two of my friends who had a fight lately are already fine.. i just hope my other friends who have problems wopuld be able to fix things up as soon as possible coz even though
im not part of their fight, i still feel so bad about it..
there are only two things that can fix this i guess.. people should be more sensitive of what others feel and think and the other one is that it's best if we wont be too mad about shallow things coz i can see that some of the reason of a fight are pretty shallow..
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
5:32 AM;
everything isnt going the way i wanted it to be...
everythings so dull... there's nothingworth thinking about.. nothing worth to care for.
i dont understand why all of these things have to happen, now, right at this moment...
i thought that this would actually be a good time for us to start over again
but i guess i was wrong.
dam*! i wish i just never cared.
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yesterday was a great but a bad day. confused? well..
it's because i actually had fun with my friends in paula's house,
but in return, my dad got mad at me.
i understand him. i get his point. but i wish he would just give me a chance to explain what had happend. i dont know if he really is just and ignorant man or what so ever
but eversince i was a kid, i hated his way of judging people. of thinking bad things about others without even knowing them. of ever accusing me of something i didnt even do; something i would NEVER do!
i know i made a mistake and i admitted it. It's okay with me that he got mad because i didnt ask for his permission or what, at least i asked my mom's permission and it was for our project. He wants me to have high grades? fine... what does he think im doing?
*sigh* there's nothing i can do.. what's done is done. the damage has been done (kyla's line)
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Yesterday, we went to paula's house and i really had fun! hah!
i know our purpose of going there was to do our journ project. and we did it.
there were a lot of chocolates in the house! yeah! and it was paradise for me because im not allowed to eat chocolates.
hmmm... not that im not allowed but my parents doesnt want us to eat too much chocolates that's why they avoid buying junk foods and pastries.
There's nothing to eat here at home that's why sometimes, i prefer staying at my friend's house in doing projects.
I dont know why but everytime we go to paula's house, makes me feel like i dont want to go home anymore. (in-a-way) haha! im not sure if it's because i like their house or is it because their house is full of ARACELI DANS's paintings.
ARACELI DANS is a great painter! and i really admire her!!!!!! if only my mom didnt tell us not to leave the house, we would have gone to Araceli Dans's house and im not sure that if ever we'd go there, i'll ever leave the house. hehehe...
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anyway, i just had fun this week. Florante at Laura's over and there are no more practices! yay!
i'll be able to go home early again and watch my *sings.slamdunk* haha! just kiddin... ^^
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
8:36 PM;
woah.. i finally found the right time to update.. haha
well... it's been quite a while since i updated my blog... anyway, for the past "few" weeks that i wasnt able to update, nothing really special happnd..
we had our ramayana reports (but i didnt volunteer) and our filipino "florante at laura" reporting.. darn that powerpoint presentation.. they werent able to download it..
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finally, i got my new track JACKET!! wahahaha.. im so happy... darn happy! coz i've been looking forward for this.. i really saved money for this huh! and now, look! it's soooo cOOL!!!
it's black with 3 red stripes on the sleeves and my number and surname in front.. "track team" at the back and "batch '08" at the back bottom part.. ^^
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we had our white elephant bazaar in SPC last week.. hahaha.... i wasnt able to bring some stuff (SORRY REGINE.. ^^")
hehehe.... it was so crowded and ...
i dunno... well, it was raining....
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i got my brother's cellphone! ahahah... but the keypads are ... darn....
i couldnt even press it... i wanted to let it fixed and then cell it and buy a new one.. something more..
complete? not sure... i guess i just want something new for a change...
anyway.. i gotta go somewhere else.. better get changed...
i just got home from lia's house eh.. ^^
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some pics...
lia and me
paula and me.. haha wat's with the face?
there goes mara and lia! oist! issue.. haha *peace*
kain kmi ni mikee.. hehe
haha..and bading at ang tibo.. hahaha joke
naks lia! nagbabasa!
aba! ngiti pa!
oi! issue! haha.. joke.. *peace*
